Grope Doodle 001

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Like I mentioned before, the male character, Ao Xingtao, actually kinda starts off kinda scary, brash, impetuous, impulsive, and he has trouble with self control. That will change as the story goes on, since I wish it to take place of a longer time span, unlike many modern stories which are just taking place in a short time period.

In this thumbnail/doodle, they are at work, working, and it's very busy. Both of them are very hard working, self motivated, very fast, and can multitask... He is also on a limited time period left in this part, and he put way too much pressure upon Lively, almost always at the EXACT wrong instances, and NEVER at a more appropriate time. Plus, dating once's coworker is pretty taboo, and altho' they have already hooked up several times, due to his own pushiness, he thinks that entitles him to do whatever he pleases as tho' he's owed it, or entitled to whatever he wants. He also puts not care or attention to her feelings, the tons of other pressures or principles she has, nor how she feels because his own feelings as so intense, which she can sense, and she's so annoyed with him because he's disrespectful to her.
Since he's often brash & impetuous, and she feels so disrespected by him, she can't even notice her deeper feelings, because in a subtle way he's abusing their relationship which could've actually been so much better if he'd just calmed down, and so to speak "be himself".

He's often times shooting himself in the foot, because the harder he tries, the more it pushes her away from him. But, then he will often turn cold, and blow her off, and even become passive aggressive by begging her to meet him, go with him, or even date him outside, and never shows up.

or, after insisting that she does something with him, or goes somewhere with him, and she actually does, he will loose his nerve and disappear because outside of the persona he plays within the working environment he has nothing to fall back on, but himself, but he doesn't know how to do that, and becomes overwhelmed by his insecurity, and anxiety.

He often times cannot make up his own mind about her, except for when he's overwhelmed by his feelings, his libido, and his drive to be near her, he can't think of anything else, and he will go through extremes of highs and lows, including intense joy when the 2 of them are flirting and joking around, or when they are bonding over working on tasks together, or even in a group, but when she's not around him, he looks for reasons to send message after message to her, ask her silly questions, or make jokes, or he's in utter painful agony by not being near her, or if she doesn't answer him. Na,d yet, he will still make plans to hang out with the other coworkers, thoughtlessly.

In this part, she is busy trying to keep up with customer demands, and preparing things for sale.
At just an opportune moment, Xingtao takes advantage of how busy everything is, and everyone and deliberately goes into the back room where she's working, and grabs her by the hips and digs his very hard erection into her hip. 
The stress and pressure of a situation like this is so overwhelming for Lively whom is so annoyed by this move, and yet she can see his desperation on his face. With his eyes he's practically begging her for something, anything, but he's so foolish that he doesn't understand it's the wrong thing to do.

With every fiber of his being, he's absolutely powerless to his feelings for her.
Everything about him is pouring out in desperation which he pitifully can't say in words:
Lively, I love you. Lively, I want you. You're the one I want. Lively, take my heart. Lively, love me back. Lively, I ache for you.

What to do? He's leaving, and going far away in a short time...

Xingtao, WHY can't you do ANYTHING RIGHT? Why must you screw everything up? Why are you such an idiot? Foolish jackass!
Can't you be respectful? Can't you think ANYTHING THROUGH? Why do you ruin everything??? So rude!